I'm kinda like Carrie . . . I can't even remember what day we are on . . . 14, I think.
I must echo what you girls have already said . . . this is getting really tough. And I think I've already told myself that I will NOT be eating this way every day, for the rest of my life.
So, I actually still haven't cheated, not even once. Which is a big deal for me. But I know my personality, and if I do, I will think, "oh, all is lost, I should just quit the whole thing." I really want to finish this 30 days, but when it is done . . . I think I will be too. ;)
I feel like I have learned to make healthier choices, through this challenge. And that I can be really satisfied with those healthier foods. But what I don't like, is feeling like I'm missing out on too much with my family. We had a movie night last night. Quinn ordered pizza, and we popped popcorn and had candy. I ate my turkey burger with apples and goat cheese, which was yummy, but the smell of the pizza was making me crazy!!! So when it came to the popcorn and candy . . . I had to leave the room. That stinks. I haven't wanted to go on a date . . . cause I just feel like everything is off limits, and I don't want to tempt myself. We went to lunch at Peiwei with mom and dad yesterday, in between games, and while everyone got yummy chinese food (which I LOVE), I had a bowl of plain chicken and veggies - no sauce, no rice, no nothin. It was fine, but not my first choice.
Anyway, I decided that I will need to tweak this thing after the 30 days in one of two ways . . . either 1) Continue to try to eat this way, but give myself one day a week where I can eat ANYTHING I want. And just give in to all that is tempting, and satisfy my cravings. Or 2) Continue to try to eat this way most all the time, but when I go out to eat, eat what I want; and when there is a special event or holiday, eat what I want; or a special outing or date (like the pumpkin patch, Taryn), eat what I want. I just don't like feeling SO restricted. I think this way of eating is awesome for most every day . . . like you guys have said, the schedule is nice -- makes us eat frequently (no missed meals), makes us eat healthy which feels good, and is quite satisfying. I just don't like feeling like I'm sitting on the sidelines for certain things involving food. And I think I feel that way, because I love food SO much! I feel like I'm starting to focus more on the restrictions than on the fact that it's yummy, healthy, real, satisfying food. I'm hoping that if I can take that "restrictive" part out of it, that I will feel even more happy and satisfied with the good healthy choices that I'm making.
In other news . . . I only exercised once this week, and pulled my back muscles pretty bad. So that was it on the exercise for the rest of the week. I also gained 3 pounds back this week . . . and I didn't cheat even once. That was a real bummer, and also probably a big reason why I'm starting to feel so DONE. All this effort, and I feel like I've started going backwards. I don't quite understand why that happened. Maybe I waited too long between meals and so my body started to hold on to my fat (like Taryn mentioned). Quinn suggested that maybe my body just got used to this new way of eating, and is adapting . . . again holding onto my fat. Anyway, it was a pretty disappointing week. No exercise, no cheating on the diet, and weight gain.
My plan for the next two weeks is to exercise as much as I can, and to try to be more precise in the timing of my meals and water drinking. And more in line with her meals. I went almost to the letter that first week, and this last week I didn't really follow her exact meals. They were still all of her suggested meals, just not on the same days/times. I don't know if there was something to that, the first week. Also I ate the paleo blueberry muffins for breakfast every day this week. (I hate eating breakfast, and this just made it SO easy to get that meal out of the way), but I worry that I missed out on too much good fat and protein, by totally omitting the eggs and avocado. Anyway, if any of you have any suggestions for my week, or theories behind my weight gain, I'd love to hear them!!
Also, I want to see a picture of your dress, Taryn!!! How fun . . . and what an exciting thing to look forward to! (And, way to improvise with using an extra diaper as a wipe! haha!) And Carrie, what a crazy week . . . no Brad, fall break!! Soooo hard. But it sounds like you handled everything well. (Other than remembering to feed yourself. ;) Sarie, hope you're still doing well. Curious to see how things are going. Love you all. And I love being able to vent to each other, and encourage each other. I don't think I would have held on this long, if we weren't all in this together! :)